17 January 2018

broken pieces

struggling with increasing pain
feeling the weight of incompleteness
and mourning my lack of ability to do 
much of what I feel called to do
I poured out my heart
to the One Who already knows

opening my journal and picking up my pen, He replied

I need your broken pieces, don't apologize for them. 
I could have kept you whole but I Am rebuilding. 
Do not despise the days of waiting 
for My work to be completed

13 January 2018

Highway dream

from https://www.dreamstime.com
I was driving in the left lane of a large expressway (western style, driver in the left seat of car)
In the lane of oncoming traffic next to me there was a fire (not sure if it was a vehicle burning or something else)

The air was dark and smoke filled making it difficult to see anything.  I was driving fast and almost didn’t notice a fire truck or ambulance driving toward me in my lane. As I quickly attempted to move to the next lane another emergency vehicle pulled into that lane. I was able to swerve and avoid hitting them, still maintaining my speed.

As soon as I passed, everything exploded into flames that I could see in my rear view mirror as I continued moving forward.

During this time of turning, transition awaits
and I know we are to continue moving ahead.
What fires or trials we will avoid and those that wait ahead 
are as yet unknown.
But only to us.
Our Lord already knows and has already felt the flames.
May we look only to Him 
and pass through smoke free.

and the satraps, prefects, governors and royal advisers crowded around them. 
They saw that the fire had not harmed their bodies, nor was a hair of their heads singed; 
their robes were not scorched, and there was no smell of fire on them.

01 January 2018

One Word 2018 - Wait

not a word I would have chosen
not me, the mistress of impatience
who wants the answers

to remain stationary in readiness or expectation
remain in readiness for a purpose

a word to unpack through 2018
as I seek health related answers
as I plan for transitions

as He reveals more
I will share

for now, this is
what He has given 
the cup of waiting

I waited patiently and expectantly for the Lord; 
and He inclined to me and heard my cry.