less of me for Christmas

This was originally written and posted in 2010.  It is as true now as it was then.

this has been another year of wanting to learn 

what it means to surrender

to desire more of Him and less of me

to lay down my plans, offer my heart

to come as I am knowing His love will accept me

but also change me.

this has been a year of learning 

how much of my "self" still fights for life.

so for this Christmas I want less

less of who I think I am and more of Who He Is.

that I might loosen my grip on this alabaster jar 

even knowing it will fall

shatter and empty 

pouring out all that I am.

this year I will again wrap a box

to place beneath the tree

as a gift to my Lord, an offering of a place emptied

prepared, waiting to be filled.

my Christmas hope, a miraculous exchange

that would leave none of me

and all of Him.