not about me

It isn't about me

never has been about me

even the thought 

that it might be about anything other than Him

blocks the total surrender He seeks

in May of 2012 I posted the following

and again I say Yes, Lord!

I am in a continual process of surrender

shaving off bits and pieces of my self

offering them to be consumed, 

saved for later, or cast aside

Use whatever You can

I murmur to my Lord

Leave what You don't need

lying by the side of the road

but take the rest of me

I am willing to be willing

With confidence I pray

I will go anywhere

I will do anything

for I belong to You

knowing it is not my strength

but Yours

so I am both reconciled and bold

but...

as days, weeks, months and years

pile one upon the other

fear wiggles in

a familiar enough voice 

sounding very much like my own says

What if He has no use for you at all?

it sends a shiver through my spirit

for yes, I want my life to count for somethin

In my trembling and confession

I hear a voice more solid

even as He whispers

It isn't about your life

When you go, and go you will,

it will be all about Me

Day 28 of 31 Days of Surrender