Showing posts with label unforced rhythms. Show all posts
Showing posts with label unforced rhythms. Show all posts

25 August 2014

not mine

time is all at once
too fast, too slow
I have not yet adjusted
to the new truth
that time is not my own
it never was
thoughts that I possessed
anything at all
were mere illusion
more stones to drop
slipping through loose fingertips
not to leave a trail to follow back
but simply to release excess
weight or ties that hinder

every bit I let go of
teaches me
how vast the store
still in my grasping
hands and heart
enough to sink a spirit 
yearning to float 
free

joining Kelli where the rhythms are His alone

 

05 August 2014

intoxicated

our last days here are wild
sweet like the clover
blooming in full fragrance
I am intoxicated
dizzy with the collecting
of sights, scents
hungry to hold and file
tastes of home
I can pack them, weight free
in my heart, where soon
they will blend
with all that is new
a fusion only The Master
Himself could brew

joining Kelli living in unforced rhythms

 

29 July 2014

land rhythms

 taking a morning ride
to the dump
more discarding of things too broken to use
or save, or give away
Rick takes a longer route
avoiding the highway with the pickup full
the dump is not
a lovely place
but the ride, yes here
on the prairies late July
boasts of her crops
even in this year where farmers dread
the latest weather reports

the fields live and breathe
with a timing all their own
in farm country, the land's rhythm
overrules clocks and schedules
but feels right, more sensible
than the pressure rush
man creates in the city
for no good reason at all

I have grown to love this, here
even as I prepare to leave
for rhythms still unknown

Listen to me now.
    Give me your closest attention.
Do farmers plow and plow and do nothing but plow?
    Or harrow and harrow and do nothing but harrow?
After they've prepared the ground, don’t they plant?
    Don’t they scatter dill and spread cumin,
Plant wheat and barley in the fields
    and raspberries along the borders?
They know exactly what to do and when to do it.
    Their God is their teacher.
And at the harvest, the delicate herbs and spices,
    the dill and cumin, are treated delicately.
On the other hand, wheat is threshed and milled, but still not endlessly.
    The farmer knows how to treat each kind of grain.
He’s learned it all from God-of-the-Angel-Armies,
    who knows everything about when and how and where.

joining Kelli in celebrating unforced rhythms

 

22 July 2014

rest

she lived free
to run, exploring
and defending the acres
that were her home

her only trips away
were to the kennel 
for boarding or the vet 
she went cheerfully to both
with tail wags and licks
always willing to share
her joy in the moment

even the pain that settled
in her bones did not hinder 
her desire to give love

yesterday morning
was no different she jumped 
happy into the backseat
of the car, only surprised
that I chose to climb in beside her
instead of taking my usual place 
in front, next to "the boss"
she didn't know 
it was her last ride

she didn't flinch or complain
when the veterinary assistant
held her back leg so the doctor
could shave through the thick fur
making room for the needle

she was too busy
giving and receiving affection
as we held and stroked her
cherishing each of her sweet kisses
as much as she enjoyed bestowing them
until the lure of sleep
called far too strong
and she lay down her head
breathing peaceful into death
in the same way she lived
with a rhythm all her own

joining Kelli where rhythms are never forced

 

09 June 2014

face up - face down

often, in quiet moments of rest
not quite sleeping
the Lord shows me 
pictures, seemingly insignificant
but I have learned to look
and see, and ask

yesterday morning, not yet wanting
to rise for the day
not sure if eyes were open
or closed, I saw an image
in a small square
the green felt of a gaming table 
with two hands of cards 
dealt face up

I didn't notice 
the value of each card
so some moments later
I closed my eyes, 
wishing to revisit
the scene
I saw the same table
two hands of cards
this time, face down

I asked God what He was showing me

sometimes I let you see
sometimes you just have to trust me

no other sermon
could have held more truth
as He set the rhythm, unforced
for my Sunday

linking with Kelli to the rhythm He sets

 

03 June 2014

drunk on fragrance

shaped by wind
winters that last too long
summers that start too late
the nanking cherry trees are alive 
with the most delicate of pink blooms
wild limbs extended
like my own thoughts
reaching out in all directions 
at once, seeking to settle, focus
drunk on the fragrance of life

open to rest, but mind consumed
with filing every glimpse away
to remember, later
in a foreign land, when my heart
thirsts for a taste of home

breathing in unforced rhythm with Kelli

 

26 May 2014

lessons in letting go

these days, I am often stopped on the street
in the mall, at the grocery store
by people I know, or those who know me
from pictures in newspaper articles
are you back already? some ask, or
when are you leaving? or
I thought you left already

no, we're still here, I reply
my heart divided, yearning 
to leave 
and stay
each day a new lesson
in letting go
as we begin the process
of packing favourite personal items
wrapped with care, to store away
unsure if we will ever use them again

we are learning, in all things

take what we are given
turn it in our hands
allowing it to become
the new thing He intends

turn it over in our hands
gently, not grasping

then let it go
give it away
it was never ours
to hold

letting the rhythm find its own way with Kelli in Unforced Rhythms

 

19 May 2014

free ride

When we started thinking about Malawi I worried about learning to operate a standard shift automobile as well as driving on the opposite side of the road.  I realized I had no need to fear as we were informed we would not have a vehicle but instead had money in our start-up budget to purchase a bicycle for each of us.

Then came a new rush of apprehension.  I ride a stationary recumbent cycle, pedaling like crazy five or six mornings a week for exercise, but a real, moving bicycle?  I hadn't even tried to ride for at least thirty years.

Last Friday, opportunity and challenge arose.  I was visiting a dear friend, who had not one but two bikes in her shed, and the afternoon was sunny, clear and warm.  She asked if I'd like to try going for a ride, knowing both my nervousness and my need to overcome it.

Anxiety tried to tighten its grip, enough so that I left my eyeglasses inside; at least if I fell I wouldn't harm them.  I felt foolish about being afraid, and spoke against the fear.  I would not allow it to hinder my attempt.

Inhale, relax. Exhale slow.
One foot on a pedal.
One foot on the ground.
Life felt precarious.
Inhale. Lift other foot.
Exhale through the instability.
Push pedals. Inhale.
Feel the motion conquering imbalance.
Exhale joy, squealing like a child.
Jesus had me, strong and steady.
The sun was in my eyes, on my skin
the wind gentle in my hair.
Victory was smooth, fast
and free.

We rode for about fifteen to twenty minutes, until the places where my body rested on the seat began to scream with annoyance.  The aches have faded now.

Friday we shall ride again, longer.  Training has begun.

joining Kelli in Unforced Rhythm

 

13 May 2014

He said so

Haven’t I commanded you? Strength! Courage! 
Don’t be timid; don’t get discouraged. 
God, your God, is with you every step you take

new land stretches
out long, wide
before me
clouds speak of storms
ahead, and I stop
gulping courage
like thin air, simply
because He
said so

if I stay, or
go, there He Is
helping me
put my brave on

linking up with Kelli in unforced rhythm

 

05 May 2014

this open place

I was new born in Christ
a rebirth at age forty-three
I had struggled long
and dark to surrender
it was the end of week one
after giving up, giving in

family did not understand
or believe, tension
and anger made room for doubt
arguing left me
weary, tears spilling
as I drove home, aching
to know if I really believed
what I professed, God
where are You? rattled
unspoken in my hungry heart

I parked the car in it's usual 
spot by the back entrance
of the apartment building
as I was about to enter
I remembered
I hadn't checked the mail
and walked alongside the building
to the courtyard in front

God Himself must have tilted
my head upward
He had glory to reveal
for there, in the thick
cover of night
was an opening, a break
in the heavy clouds
glowing golden light
of an almost full moon

I stopped, stilled, jaws open
I don't know when I took in
breath, the late October air
was creeping through
my coat, chilling
every
part
of
me
yet I could not 
move
I remained rooted
to the ground, there
but my spirit
soaring, my heart
rejoicing, speaking
to my God
without sound

Thank You
You are there
and You have made a way
this open place
for me to see You
a break in the sky
for me to reach
into and break
through

tears mingled with
the wonder
and faith settled in
deeper than that night sky

Joining Kelli in Unforced Rhythms

and continuing to let creativity have it's way as I work through Dave Harrity's Making Manifest, where yesterday's exercise was to recall a time I felt a vivid sense of awe.