Trust not myself

The Lord gave me the words courage, focus and trust for 2012. He has given me new words for the new year, yet I believe I am not release the old words but continue to hold them close.

I am reminded of what He shared with me:

You are correct to place no trust in your flesh, but -- you can trust the Me in you.

With all your heart you must trust the Lord and not your own judgement  Always let him lead you, and he will clear the road for you to follow. Proverb 3:5-6 Contemporary English Version

I can't rely on my emotions to tell me the truth
they so easily lead me in circles, running wild, spinning
I can't trust my own understanding
when I realize each day that I understand less and less
but indeed I hunger to know Him more
that I might trust the Him within



jamming with Bonnie about trust

 

When you say "anything"

There are times we pray safe
"Lord, I'll do as you say, go where you send me"
as long as it fits our schedule
as long as we can understand His request

And there are times we pray dangerous
when we declare
"Lord, let Your will, not mine be done
glorify Yourself in my life
whatever it is you want from me
 I'll do anything"
and in that moment of surrender
we think we can imagine what anything might mean

but...
anything means anything

For now, the anything He has chosen
is for me to walk through a medical condition
I would not have expected
that creates the need for skull base and neuro surgery
this will entail much travel between home
and Saskatoon where my medical/surgical team will be based

Perhaps as a dear friend prayed for me on Sunday
this is more than a medical journey
but a mission as well
I will certainly be meeting many new people along the way

in the days, weeks and months to come
if He asks it of me
you may find me writing
about my journey through the trials of an acoustic neuroma
about consults, surgery and the recovery process

I ask for your patience
your questions
your grace
and for your prayers
that He indeed will be glorified
in the way I walk this out.