surrendering the fight

I have long wanted

what I wanted

when I wanted

how I wanted

after all, I had rights

things I was certain I deserved

and didn't God promise

to prosper me

to give me the desires 

of my heart?

my spirit fought

what was

wishing for what wasn't

what about my dreams?

my ideas? my, my, my....

“My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts,” says the Lord.

    “And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine.

For just as the heavens are higher than the earth,

    so my ways are higher than your ways

    and my thoughts higher than your thoughts.

Isaiah 55:8-9 NLT

I am choosing

with deliberate intention

to give up the fight

for what I might see 

as perfect plans

that I might desire

what He desires

surrendering to ways

far beyond my own imagination

and thoughts so much higher than my own

that I can't quite grasp them

Day 23 of 31 Days of Surrender










and joining Emily in all my imperfection

 

world on a platter

born into

the Pepsi Generation

taught to Just Do It

Be all that I can be

I was told 

I could have the whole 

world on a platter

but so many 

choices can paralyse

What are you hungry for

when you don't know what

you're hungry for?

undisciplined, glutted

with too much 

that was never

 enough

now my constant 

prayer is

bleed me dry

to desire more of You

thanks to Pepsi, Nike, U.S. Army and Ritz Crackers
hanging out with Brian and the poets slinging slogans