dear frightened one

Dear younger self, 

frightened one:

You have come to a place 

where you can no longer deny 

the reality of the Lord's presence

how He had been calling and calling you 

and your closed ears would not hear.

You are ready to open your heart

to give Him room.

You have made a choice, a decision.

Those who have helped you along the way 

suggest you will soon become a mouthpiece for Him.

This is where the fear settles.  

You want to keep this private.

You respond with stubborn anger.

I don't want to be a ($@^#$* minister.

No one will make me talk about this.

Your fists are clenched

holding tight to your emotions.

You are not ready to see what I see now.

You can't see the fire that will settle 

deep in your bones and move your tongue

to not only speak

but shout, declare, sing His praise.

You can't see how the future spreads 

wide over years of learning to surrender.

But in time your eyes will open.

You will be where I am know

planning to travel to the other end of the world

to share His story, His wonder, His glory.

writing a letter to my self with Velvet Ashes








and joining Lisa-Jo where the word is see